Why Meredith Grey

I went with this over and over again and I cannot compare myself to anyone else but the famous Grey's Anatomy character - Meredith Grey. Don't get me wrong ... this is not a 'rise to the occasion' sort of stuff and not even the 'hollywood grandeur' kind of thinking. I am way past my grandiosity and I am way, way past of rising to the occasion ... because just like my dear old friend meredith grey ... it is completely the opposite. It is more like ... sinking on the occasion, six feet buried under the cold unfeeling ground.

First of all, who is Meredith Grey and I like to define who Meredith Grey is because in doing so, then it means I get to define myself. Then maybe, it would no longer be 'anonymously madz.' Sometimes I laugh over the comedy of how I got to compare myself to her. Do I have Derek Shepherd to call my McDreamy? or an Addison Shepherd to call as 'satan and an adulterous bitch?' Do I have a Cristina Yang to call as my 'person?' or perhaps someone to call me 'ordinary?' And yes, do I have a medical background at that, that requires long hours of saving lives and packing up orders or watching someone die or consoling who is left behind?

I've been keeping score and I must say I get 5 over 5 from the quiz. That's evidence enough. I say yes to all 5 questions so there it goes ... I am Meredith Grey. And in the upcoming blogs I will prove more how I am this character from the popular television series, how our lives are closely linked together, how ... when I see her cry, laugh, get hurt, get angry ... I see myself. And normally I can't see myself. But when I look at her, it feels like the genius writer who writes her lines and defines her character is directly speaking at me. I know, i know. It seems psychotic and maybe it is. But hey, it gives me the idea that somehow, in this universe, I am not alone in my line of thinking. Someone understands ... someone ... that someone who created the image of Meredith Grey.

So, yeah ... meet me ... I'm Meredith Grey. I'm Madz.